I was expecting something to happen. [fact]
I was afraid, and yet I wanted it,” he decided. “I was expecting something to happen. I had made room for something. . . .” He knew something had happened, but he felt it had not been real: the war continued to hide behind its ghosts, the world around him went on draining away in silence.
Julien Gracq, Balcony in the Forest, loc. 509