O’Neal has this closing thought: “When I think of my future, when I think of someday—though I’m not married, I intend to be—when my son asks me what I did in Korea, how can I tell him that I came over here and dropped germ bombs on people, destroying them, bringing death and destruction? How can I go back and face my family in a civilized world? How can I tell them these things, that I—I am a criminal in the eyes of humanity? They’re my flesh and blood. It’s the most difficult thing, to really give a man’s feelings a vocal expression. I can’t try, I can only tell you somewhat of how I feel.”

Nicholson Baker, Baseless- My Search for Sec…, loc. 945